*hey boy I really wanna be with u, cause you're just my type...*

I'll never be anything but loud...

waiting for the right time to tell you how I feel...

ich will ich will ich will

ich bin ja sonst nicht so der gewinnspielfan! aber bei Jorge Alexander musste ich einfach mitmachen.

grund 1: ich liebe seinen blog
grund 2: ich liebe diese schuhe(links)

why do I want him so bad?

I don't mind anymore...

verliebt...

you killed me and I'm still trying to reincarnate

Maybe we are never meant to let go and forget someone completely. They became memories. Memories that warm you up from inside and also the same thing to tear you apart inside. We can’t do anything to it, we just have to continue to play out our lives. Leaving behind a feeling of immeasurable emptiness.

"You know, I’ve got this theory: There are two kinds of people in the world. There are lyric people and music people. You know, the lyrics people tend to be analytical. You know, all about the meaning of the song. They’re the ones you see with the CD insert out like five minutes after buying it, pouring over the lyrics, interpreting the hell out of everything. Then there’s the music people who could care less for the lyrics as long as it’s just got, like, a good beat and you could dance to it. I don’t know, sometimes it might be easier to be a music girl and not a lyric girl. But since I’m not, let me just say this: Sometimes things find you when you need them to find you. I believe that. And for me, it’s usually song lyrics."

unspoken

So just let me go
I won’t change my mind.
I'd rather be lonely
Than be by your side.
And nothing you say
Could save us this time.
I’d rather be lonely.

...würde das bloss jemand zu mir sagen und es auch wirklich so meinen...

This is goodbye to a time where you were what I always wanted

we'd make a great couple

...

sometimes we wonder, how much weight we have to lose to be skinny or to look skinny...
to be the skinny girl, that everybody looks up to.
every day I wonder, how it would be to be as skinny as some of the girls in magazines or on tv.
but then I think about the price I'd pay...
the price I paid once, when you told me, that i'm not skinny enough
not skinny enough to be a model
so, not skinny enough to stay with you
not skinny enough, that you could love me.
just a little...

"I feel like I am one of those people who are so miserable that they can’t be around normal people. like I’ll infect the happy people."

birthdaygirl

today's my 21th birthday!

checklist für heute:

- lecker frühstücken mit meiner schwester(die ich jetzt endlich wecken muss)
- dazu HURTS-album auf endlosschleife hören
- den süssen geschenketisch zerstören und auspacken bis der arzt kommt
- faul sein und dumme filme gucken
- so viele kekse und selbstgebackenen-mama-yummi-schokowürfelkuchen essen wie nur möglich(no diets today)
-... mehr kuchen...mehr kekse!
- zwillingsbruder anrufen(erster geburtstag ohne ihn...ferien in kroatien)
- auf meine liebste freundin warten, die mich am abend besuchen kommt<3
- abendessen mit meiner familie beim italiener(wollte ja sushi aber da macht papa und schwester nicht mit...)
- alle nervigen, stressigen dinge, die ich erledigen sollte vergessen
- schlaflosigkeit und melancholie vergessen
-spass haben, lachen bis der bauch schmerzt!
-...mehr kuchen

...the reasons why i'm single:

• i’m not attractive enough
• i'm not skinny enough
  
• i’m not a slut
• i sometimes act like an idiot
• i always complain about myself
  
• i haven’t had a REAL relationship
  
• i’m awkward
• i'm loud
  
• i’m always good friends with the guys i like and can't take the next step
• i'm into bad boys
  
• i’m too insecure
• i don’t let anyone in because i don’t trust easily(anymore)
• i got hurt one time too many

+ the guys i go for, are always in a relationship

I wish I'd know, that it would be this hard to be alone...

Loveless nights, they seem so long
I know, that I'll hold you someday. But till you come back where you belong, it's just another LONELY SUNDAY.