*cold summer*

It's New Years Eve's day...and I'm thinking 'bout what I've done and left behind...
I'm thinking 'bout what is over...
And I'm sad...sad of what I lost..
Sad of thinking back to the good and happy times we've shared...
New year will bring me the same happiness you brought me once...
Feelings I had that time in spring...
This summer, we laughed and had the best time of our lives...
But when summer's over, you hurt me...
And I couldn't forget that until now...
I'm thinking...I'm sad...
But new year will bring me a new start...new happiness and true feelings...
And I decide whether with or without you.

my lyrics

*memories they hang like ghosts*

*didn't I my dear?*

And my head told my heart
"Let love grow"
But my heart told my head
"This time no"

*sugar*

*so hate me if you must*

*some days*

*please don't let me cry again on christmas*

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

*But my eyes go looking for flying saucers in the sky*

I choose no face to look at
Choose no way
I just happen to be here
And it's ok

*on your fingers*

*cold*

*you're so fuckin' special*

*I can't do this by myself*

*don’t let it pass you by and leave you shaking*

It hurts so much I can't hide
Like twisting a knife buried deep inside
shout in pillows hold my tears
hope I get back those golden years

But we got lost

*am I a fool to be asking for?*

Was it love, or just something that reminded me of
Something that felt a lot like, but wasn't, love
Just friends, friends then, until the end
You know I still pretend, just friends.

Take a step and come out of the shade
I can tell you're no longer afraid
I'm helpless without your warming smile
Take a step and come out in the sun
I can tell it's already begun
I'm helpless without your warming smile

Was it love, I think it was but I'm far from sure
I'd never felt that way before, was it love?
Just friends, am I a fool to be asking for,
a fool to wish that we could be more than friends

*I'm falling to pieces*

*no.5*

*all that I write is a grey, grey tune*

Well I've been here before
Sat on the floor in a grey grey room
Where I stay in all day
I don't eat, but I play with this grey grey food

*where's that feeling, that I don't feel?*

*ooooh the mountain top*

*shall we, mr. pollock?*

Most of the people at my age think, that art is boring! I don't...
It's just what you made of it...
You need a kind of free mind to deal with it and to see through these pieces of colour and canvas...
Put your prejudices into the next rubbish bin and open your mind!It will surprise you.


only two pieces of my favourite artist jackson pollock

*I don't wanna be friends*

today I found it out...
I don't need you...
today i found it out...
I can be happy now...
No more thinking of what I made wrong or how I should act next to you...
no more thinking of us as friends or lovers...
there's no more "us" anymore...
I'm over it now...
and I'm happy...I'm calm
I'm over it now and I think I never want to see you again.

lyrics by me

*memories made in the coldest winter*

Winter arrived...